finally.

so, this is what it feels like…

to finally come up for air after you’ve been pulled under water

to finally exhale that breath you’ve been holding in

to finally break out from the prison you’ve been caged in

to finally open your eyes and see what was invisible to you after you’ve been blind for so long

to finally see that the world has been waiting on you to just let go.

jcg 040917

why do you?

i’m not perfect,
neither are you.
i accepted that
about you.
why can’t you
accept me, too?

why is it
every wrong step
that i make
it seems like
i committed a crime?

you make mistakes, too,
but i don’t condemn you.
no.
so, why do you?

jcg072316

(i doubt you ever did.)

image

i don’t know if you ever noticed.
i wonder, did you ever see it?
after a comment, a gesture, a look or expression from you,
did you see my eyes turn sad, my spirit dampen or my smile fade?
(i doubt you ever did.)
did you care enough to notice?
(i doubt you ever did.)

jcg 071716

I am grateful for…

Week 5 List Prompt: What are you grateful for?

Five weeks into this, great!

What am I grateful for? So many things! Here are a few…

  • My family – their love, support and guidance
  • My good friends – no matter how much time has passed or how far the distance, they will be there
  • Opportunities
  • My education
  • Having my wishes come true
  • For the chance to see the world and to see it with the people I love most
  • Weekends
  • My job – it’s my way of earning
  • All the books and all the authors! You make the world a richer place
  • Coffee and desserts!
  • Love – because, love.
  • Pain, because I would have never felt and I would never learn
  • My mistakes – they helped shape who I am today
  • Life  and getting to wake up each day
  • Good health and good life
  • Internet! It makes things so much easier.
  • Music
  • People who work hard and achieve. They are inspirations and they make the world a better place.

Dreams and Goals

Week 4 List Prompt: List your current & future goals and dreams

Hmm. I’ve always been a dreamer – a romantic. I’ve dived into so many fiction books and let my mind wander. I’ve always believed in my skills. Put those together, I have many things I want to achieve in life. Here are a few that come to mind…

Live my life to the fullest
Get that promotion! Be professionally successful.
Earn more than enough to live a comfortable life
Get those graduate and post-grad degrees.
Spend my days with the one I love most.
Travel to: France, Italy, London, NY.. to all the continents!
See an Aurora Borealis
Experience the fall season somewhere foreign
See a Broadway show in New York
Go to all the Disneyland Parks with my family
Visit the Wizarding World of HP and Warner Bros.’ HP studios
Be healthy and stay healthy
Get married and build my dream house with my dream library – walls covered in books
Be an admirable person, someone that others look up to and emulate
To stay compassionate and always understanding
To always be open minded
To never stop striving for knowledge, never stop learning
Have all my dreams come true?
Be the person my family would be proud of

Things That I am Proud Of

Week 3 List Prompt: List the things you should be proud of

I don’t even know. What should I be proud of? Not to go all “emo” but I haven’t really done much or so many. I’m still going through life, working the best I can to have the best life and be the best me I can be.

It’s probably best if I start small…
I graduated and have a college degree.
I have read many, many, many books.
I am quite intelligent, I think.
I’m a good enough writer, eh?
I’m a Ravenclaw! HEY!
I am transparent, not fake.
I’ve grown and stretched my patience.
I do quite well at my job.
I am a good listener and I easily understand things.
I’m a fast learner and a hard worker.
I am a good enough speaker, quite eloquent.
I am very observant.
I can be very child-like at times, which is good.
I am quite mature, too. I mean, I think I am wise.
I’m proud that I can be independent although not all the time.
I’m proud of who I am now. There’s no other way but up.

There’s a million things I haven’t done but just you wait…
– Lin Manual Miranda, Hamilton

The Greatest Comforts

Week 2 List Prompt: List your greatest comforts.

At the start of this blog post, as type everything out, I think there are very few things that comfort me – very few yet meaningful things. They wouldn’t be comforting if they didn’t mean anything.

On with the list…

A warm cup of coffee
Warm hugs from people I love most in the world
Complete and utter silence
Reading and finishing a good “i-don’t-care-if-i-lack-sleep-good” kind of book
Quality time with my family
Watching the world pass by as I commute
The smell of the rain
The smell of books, new and old
Knowing that there are a select few out there who are good and true friends
Knowing what I am capable of and all the good things I have achieved

Clearly, it’s not the longest of lists. I wonder, what does that say about me?

Words That Touch Your Soul

Week 1 List Prompt: List the words that touch your soul.

Well, this is a hard one. You would think that listing down words can be rather easy but it’s kind of difficult for me. So many words, so many meanings, so many intentions, how to choose?

I started this post Tuesday morning and finished a day after. I decided to take this slow and steady, to really reflect on the words and what they mean and how they touch my soul. I know, I know – deep stuff. But that’s just how it is.

Anyway, here are the words that touch my soul.

Love
Understanding
Happiness
Wisdom
Intelligence
Perseverance
Patience
Truth
Integrity
Respect
Cherish
Compassion
Thanks
Peace
Hard work
Independence
Family
Friends
Laughter
Conversation
Magic
Literature
Smile
Chocolate
Purple
Coffee
Adventure
Silence
Forever
Wonder
Dreams
Hugs

So, what are the words that touch your soul?

Life, Loves and Lists

I recently discovered this list project called the 52 Lists Project by Moorea Seal. I thought it to be an interesting outlet to write and reflect on life.

Her project has been turned into a book but since I think it isn’t available at my local bookstore, I decided to give her lists prompts of 22 a try for my blog. It’s a good way for me to assess and look at my life and also to be more active at posting.

Each week, you list down things depending on the prompt – what your dreams are, what you’re grateful for, your favorite quotes, people you admire and so much more.

Personally, I hope this project will be beneficial to me. I need to do some serious reflection and assessment of the goings-on in my life. I hope that looking at the way things are now could help me create a better brighter future. I’ll do my best to follow the project’s weekly schedule.

Let’s do this!

As a new year begins…

It’s been months since I’ve posted anything on this blog. And there is one more set of pictures that I should have uploaded. But as it is the first day of teh new year, it’s a good time to reflect on the year that passed.

2014 was, in it’s entirety, amazing. I feel so utterfly blessed.

The year went by so fast but looking back, I wouldn’t do anything else differently. There were so many changes in the past year and I welcomed them with open arms.

My family and I went to many places. From abroad to local, it’s been an adventure with them, and as the famly grows larger in number, I can’t wait for more travels and more fun times with the people the mean most to me in the world.

Many of my relationships have been through a roller coaster. With breakups and makeups through those months, it made me see what I’m capable of and how weak yet strong I could be. It made me realize the value of friendship and how I can lose a piece of myself when these relations are broken. All these ups and downs made me realize how much worth there is in a person, including myself, and how we should always value people dear to us and never fail to show them how much.

I’m super thankful for all that happened the past year because it led me to where I am today – happy, with a heart full of love and hope.

May 2015 give us all the best things! Happy New Year!

20150101_000416_0-2