so, this is what it feels like…

to finally come up for air after you’ve been pulled under water

to finally exhale that breath you’ve been holding in

to finally break out from the prison you’ve been caged in

to finally open your eyes and see what was invisible to you after you’ve been blind for so long

to finally see that the world has been waiting on you to just let go.

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I am grateful for…

Week 5 List Prompt: What are you grateful for?

Five weeks into this, great!

What am I grateful for? So many things! Here are a few…

  • My family – their love, support and guidance
  • My good friends – no matter how much time has passed or how far the distance, they will be there
  • Opportunities
  • My education
  • Having my wishes come true
  • For the chance to see the world and to see it with the people I love most
  • Weekends
  • My job – it’s my way of earning
  • All the books and all the authors! You make the world a richer place
  • Coffee and desserts!
  • Love – because, love.
  • Pain, because I would have never felt and I would never learn
  • My mistakes – they helped shape who I am today
  • Life  and getting to wake up each day
  • Good health and good life
  • Internet! It makes things so much easier.
  • Music
  • People who work hard and achieve. They are inspirations and they make the world a better place.

Dreams and Goals

Week 4 List Prompt: List your current & future goals and dreams

Hmm. I’ve always been a dreamer – a romantic. I’ve dived into so many fiction books and let my mind wander. I’ve always believed in my skills. Put those together, I have many things I want to achieve in life. Here are a few that come to mind…

Live my life to the fullest
Get that promotion! Be professionally successful.
Earn more than enough to live a comfortable life
Get those graduate and post-grad degrees.
Spend my days with the one I love most.
Travel to: France, Italy, London, NY.. to all the continents!
See an Aurora Borealis
Experience the fall season somewhere foreign
See a Broadway show in New York
Go to all the Disneyland Parks with my family
Visit the Wizarding World of HP and Warner Bros.’ HP studios
Be healthy and stay healthy
Get married and build my dream house with my dream library – walls covered in books
Be an admirable person, someone that others look up to and emulate
To stay compassionate and always understanding
To always be open minded
To never stop striving for knowledge, never stop learning
Have all my dreams come true?
Be the person my family would be proud of

Things That I am Proud Of

Week 3 List Prompt: List the things you should be proud of

I don’t even know. What should I be proud of? Not to go all “emo” but I haven’t really done much or so many. I’m still going through life, working the best I can to have the best life and be the best me I can be.

It’s probably best if I start small…
I graduated and have a college degree.
I have read many, many, many books.
I am quite intelligent, I think.
I’m a good enough writer, eh?
I’m a Ravenclaw! HEY!
I am transparent, not fake.
I’ve grown and stretched my patience.
I do quite well at my job.
I am a good listener and I easily understand things.
I’m a fast learner and a hard worker.
I am a good enough speaker, quite eloquent.
I am very observant.
I can be very child-like at times, which is good.
I am quite mature, too. I mean, I think I am wise.
I’m proud that I can be independent although not all the time.
I’m proud of who I am now. There’s no other way but up.

There’s a million things I haven’t done but just you wait…
– Lin Manual Miranda, Hamilton

The Greatest Comforts

Week 2 List Prompt: List your greatest comforts.

At the start of this blog post, as type everything out, I think there are very few things that comfort me – very few yet meaningful things. They wouldn’t be comforting if they didn’t mean anything.

On with the list…

A warm cup of coffee
Warm hugs from people I love most in the world
Complete and utter silence
Reading and finishing a good “i-don’t-care-if-i-lack-sleep-good” kind of book
Quality time with my family
Watching the world pass by as I commute
The smell of the rain
The smell of books, new and old
Knowing that there are a select few out there who are good and true friends
Knowing what I am capable of and all the good things I have achieved

Clearly, it’s not the longest of lists. I wonder, what does that say about me?

Words That Touch Your Soul

Week 1 List Prompt: List the words that touch your soul.

Well, this is a hard one. You would think that listing down words can be rather easy but it’s kind of difficult for me. So many words, so many meanings, so many intentions, how to choose?

I started this post Tuesday morning and finished a day after. I decided to take this slow and steady, to really reflect on the words and what they mean and how they touch my soul. I know, I know – deep stuff. But that’s just how it is.

Anyway, here are the words that touch my soul.

Hard work

So, what are the words that touch your soul?

Life, Loves and Lists

I recently discovered this list project called the 52 Lists Project by Moorea Seal. I thought it to be an interesting outlet to write and reflect on life.

Her project has been turned into a book but since I think it isn’t available at my local bookstore, I decided to give her lists prompts of 22 a try for my blog. It’s a good way for me to assess and look at my life and also to be more active at posting.

Each week, you list down things depending on the prompt – what your dreams are, what you’re grateful for, your favorite quotes, people you admire and so much more.

Personally, I hope this project will be beneficial to me. I need to do some serious reflection and assessment of the goings-on in my life. I hope that looking at the way things are now could help me create a better brighter future. I’ll do my best to follow the project’s weekly schedule.

Let’s do this!

As a new year begins…

It’s been months since I’ve posted anything on this blog. And there is one more set of pictures that I should have uploaded. But as it is the first day of teh new year, it’s a good time to reflect on the year that passed.

2014 was, in it’s entirety, amazing. I feel so utterfly blessed.

The year went by so fast but looking back, I wouldn’t do anything else differently. There were so many changes in the past year and I welcomed them with open arms.

My family and I went to many places. From abroad to local, it’s been an adventure with them, and as the famly grows larger in number, I can’t wait for more travels and more fun times with the people the mean most to me in the world.

Many of my relationships have been through a roller coaster. With breakups and makeups through those months, it made me see what I’m capable of and how weak yet strong I could be. It made me realize the value of friendship and how I can lose a piece of myself when these relations are broken. All these ups and downs made me realize how much worth there is in a person, including myself, and how we should always value people dear to us and never fail to show them how much.

I’m super thankful for all that happened the past year because it led me to where I am today – happy, with a heart full of love and hope.

May 2015 give us all the best things! Happy New Year!


As the year ends…

It’s been so long since I’ve written anything substantial and blog worthy. (It’s funny how my end-of-the-year post last year started out this way, too.) With the year drawing to a close, it seemed appropriate to, at least, write something about the year and about the things I want to do on the next one.

In its totality, 2013 wasn’t that good for me. Compared to previous ones, I think I shed more tears this year. I felt a lot of failures, disappointments and sadness. The year was also a year of growth and change. A few changes broke my heart but I still managed to get by and placed a genuine smile on my face. A couple of these changes were for the better, though – a few stars in a very dark night.

Despite that though, the year had its milestones. I checked off a lot of things off my bucket list. A few of my wishes came true. A lot of plans came through. I achieved a good number things and am very proud of myself. Looking back, I would rather focus on the positive and face the upcoming year that way.

2013 taught me that no matter how sad you might feel or even if it seems like nothing will get better, it will. It will pass. Even if it feels like your whole world is destroyed, it isn’t. Things do get better and you come out a better person out of it. You just need to be brave, resilient and optimistic. A little help from loved ones doesn’t hurt either.

The year made me realize that when you open your own personal hypothetical Pandora’s box, don’t forget to look for hope inside it. As in the tale, when the box was opened, numerous bad things came into the world but hope was there, too.

So, in 2014, for all that is to come and whatever awaits me, I hope to greet them all with a great big smile. 🙂


Looking back and moving forward.

The month of August has always been a turning point in my life essentially because it is my birth month. I turn a year older every year as the month ends. But there are so many things that make 2013’s August different from the years that have passed.

Firstly, on the month’s very first day, I got hired. It is my very first job. For being a sheltered youngest daughter of the family, actually getting hired was a big deal. In the couple of weeks that I’ve been at the office, things couldn’t have been better professionally. My actual job utilizes things I’ve slaved over in university. I count myself lucky because of that. Finding that job vacancy with a job description that actually involves something I’ve studied was extremely serendipitous.

Secondly, I’ve been feeling a bit of heart-ache the past few weeks. As they say, some things just aren’t meant to be. With that, though, I’ve learned so many things. I have learned that relationships need a lot of work. Affection and feeling are never enough for everything to work out. I have come to realize that letting go can also mean growing up. After all, the only constant thing in life is change and I have come to accept that the change needed now is the one thing that has always been there for years. Yes, it’s very hard for me to think that this person will not be there anymore but that’s how life is. Change. This is the change I need. The change I need to be better and to grow.

Lastly, I’m turning a year older next week. Age-wise, I’m an adult.  I’m not a teenager anymore. All the dreaming, wishing, hoping and the “when I grow up…” statements can actually be fulfilled.

The situations in my life lately have pushed me to look at the bigger picture and forced me to see things clearly. This made me see what I want in life, especially in the near future. I’ve set goals in my head. Although some are petty, each of these goals are things for me to strive to gain so that I can improve myself and my life. I have realized that things I have dreamed about before can be achieved now, with hard work and time. I feel as though I can do anything I could ever want to do. That feeling is so liberating. It is as if nothing can stop me. And I won’t let anything do that. I won’t let anything or anyone hold me back and keep me from attaining all my goals and making my dreams come true.