On this day…

I am having this post scheduled at 12:01am Philippine time. Why so specific? It is because it is the start of the 30th day in August – my birthday.

image found via Google

I’ve decided to dedicate a blog post to the things that I am thankful for. If interested, read on. Pardon writing mistakes, if any.

  1. My life. Of course, I am very much thankful for having reached 21 years. It seems like a long period of time, but having lived through that length so far, it doesn’t feel that way. Hopefully, more and more years to come 🙂
  2. My parents, mostly my father. Although he and i have not been seeing eye-to-eye on things lately, I am very much grateful of all that he has done for me.  Giving me all the things I could need, indulging my sometimes unnecessary wants (while shopping!) and mostly, for providing me with an education. I think that going to school & being able to achieve that degree (soon) is one of the best gifts he gave me.
  3. My sisters. They are both elder. They are my guides. As elder siblings are, they are very protective. They have taught me so many things and have given great advice. I wouldn’t be who I am without them. I am very thankful for all that they’ve done. The two of them are preparing me for proper adult life after school and I am very appreciative of that. Sometimes, it’s like they’re the ones raising me and I hope I don’t disappoint.
  4. My niece. I have a 7 year old niece. She turned so 15 days ago. Despite her age, she’s taught me a lot. She taught me to be kinder, wiser and more responsible. I am thankful that she is in our family… things would have been different otherwise. She is our glue. Our center. She’s very cute, too!
  5. The boyfriend. He just makes everything better. He always makes me laugh. He makes me happy. He encourages me. He berates me. He puts me in my place. He appreciates me. And he thinks I’m amazing, which is debatable. He’s always there for me no matter what. I am so so very thankful that I met him 6 years ago. My life wouldn’t be the same if I hadn’t.
  6. My friends. They’ve brought me joy. They are always there. Always ready to listen whenever there are problems. Always there to share that super random joke. Always there to reminisce about old times and then not stop laughing about it. I am thankful for them for always being there. (If you read this, I love you, guys!)
  7. Surprisingly, the people who’ve done me wrong. The people who have been mean to me and who put me down. There are a few of them, I tell you, since grade school. Imagine that? LOL I am very much thankful for them because they’ve made me strong. They’ve made me realize that whatever they might say against me or about me, they can’t hurt me. I am stronger than that. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, eh?
  8. My mistakes. In a previous blog post, I shared my thoughts about regret. I am thankful for these mistakes. They are examples of what I mustn’t do ever ever again. They can help me move on, help me be better. Although a bad experience, it’s still a learning experience.
  9. Music. I am thankful for music. It’s the thing that I run to whenever I have problems. Music is my consign friend. It never fails to know exactly how I feel and it never fails to make me feel better.
  10. Photography. Weird, I know. How could I be thankful for that? Let me explain. See, I’ve never been the usual artsy type. The one that draws well, paints well, etc. I’ve never had the hands to  do those things. With photography, it gave me the means to be “an artist.” For me, art is a means of expressing yourself creatively. Photography (or my attempt at it) gave me that outlet and for that I am thankful.
  11. Technology. In the years that passed, technology was rapidly evolving. I remember when I was a kid, it felt cool to have a PC running Win98 at home. Win98! Then years passed, we got ourselves an internet connection and then came everything else. I am thankful for technology because it opened my eyes. It showed me what’s out there in the world. All the places to see, the billions of people, all kinds of food all over! It’s amazing. It’s funny how technology made the world seem small and accessible yet rather big and vast at the same time.
  12. My inspirations. There are many, so so many – from people to things to places. How? With not going into specifics, well, these things are my driving force. They give me motive and they inspire. Because of these, I am influenced to be the best and to do my best, to achieve certain things and to go certain places. I am thankful for them and for the push that they give.
  13. This blog. Without it, I’d never get to have an outlet for all my thoughts.
  14. YOU. My blog’s readers. Seeing my stats and knowing somebody viewed my blog always makes me smile. So, thank you, reader. You make my day whenever you click onto my blog.

So, happy birthday to me! Yey, 21!

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Loneliness – a bad thing?

As it’s Saturday, I’ve come to reflect on all the things that happened this week… and I found a common factor on the past 7 days.

I’ve been lonely. I felt lonely.

Because of this realization, I went on Google to search for handy-dandy quotes on the subject… but more on that later.

from Tumblr: picture depicting loneliness. 😦

One would equate loneliness to something negative. Most people’s thoughts of being lonely would turn to a sad-slash-depressing notion. I thought of that, too, at first. It saddened me a lot that I felt this way. Let me explain…

See, this week was my university’s annual intramural. The week was filled with activities – from a battle of the bands type of event to a presentation of research papers to various sporting competitions. Each day was filled to the brim with activities for students and university personnel to take part in. (And it was a requirement to attend at least one event in the morning and another one in the afternoon.)

On these intramural days, most, if not all, students use this time to be with their friends and go to whatever event they want. This would’ve been the case for me too but my usual bunch of friends, or as Filipinos would call it “barkada”, had to prioritize other things.

So, that’s why i felt lonely. It is a petty reason, I admit. Although I still had friends (from the non-usual bunch. LOL) accompanying me, there were still moments of stillness. It felt like, despite having them around, I was still alone. (It’s not their fault, though. They are great people! I wouldn’t be with them/be in their company if they weren’t.)

So. Google. I read a number of quotes but the one that got to me had a different message than what I initially thought.

“Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. And intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way.”

― Janet FitchWhite Oleander

Quote from http://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/loneliness

I, then, realized that loneliness can be a good thing and not necessarily sad. Loneliness can help us grow. Help us be more self-dependent. It’s a good thing to feel lonely at times because it can push us to get to know ourselves better and with that, mould ourselves into the best persons we can be.  As my ever wise sister always tells me, “At the end of the day, the only person you can lean on and count on is yourself.”

Not that I like feeling lonely or anything… but when the feeling does come, i should welcome it (not be sad!) and take the time to just be with myself and my thoughts. Get to know me a little bit more and grow from it. 🙂 Nothing bad with that.

Inspiration for the Photography Newbie

Yesterday, together with other members of the Dynacom Council, I had the great opportunity to attend the Canon Pixma Seminar at the Quest Hotel, Cebu. The seminar was all about Canon cameras and printers and what they offer. The speaker was professional photographer Per-Andre Hoffmann. (His photos are amazing! Truly inspiring!)  Basically, he showed us photos he took all over the world using Canon cameras.

photo of the council members with Per-Andre Hoffmann.

Even though I have been interested in the field for years, that was the first ever seminar/workshop thing I have been to that was about photography. It’s safe to say that I learned a lot!

Mr. Hoffmann showed us loads of photos and as he showed them, he shared his techniques and what he experienced when he took those pictures. Listening to him was truly inspiring.

He said, “try to see things a little bit differently.” That was the statement that stuck with me. Why? These days, most people have this perception that just because they own a digital SLR camera, it means they’re photographers. With that said, it seems that anyone can take pictures of just whatever and deem themselves photographers. And as a person truly interested in photography, I would want to exclude myself from that norm. So, I plan to take to heart what Per-Andre Hoffmann said, and see things in a different way.

I realized then that photography is not only just capturing memories. It can be the expression of how you see the world – how you see people, nature, everything. And just like every other medium in art, photography is self expression. (oh! and I will surely attend more workshops in the future LOL)

That seminar is 4 hours of my life that could not be replaced. That seminar left me feeling inspired to do more with my craft. Hopefully, what I’ve learned, I will apply.

“ Your first 10,000 photographs are your worst.” – Henri Cartier-Bresson

Words from a not-so-teenager

Just last week, my older sister showed me this picture. She is 10 years my senior, so, I trust her & listen to her advice a lot. Anyway, she practically planted my face in front of the laptop’s screen just to read this little article.

image from Google

(I have a feeling this is going to be a heavy post. Pardon me if my thoughts are not organized.)

I am not a teenager anymore. In fact, I am turning 21 at the end of the month. At this age, I guess I have to “man-up.”

In my country, the Philippines, most 20 year olds have already finished university. I am one of those who got lagged behind. My slight delay in finishing my studies and the reasons behind it are a bit of a concern for my sister and the rest of my family. I think that they have this impression that I am too lax… that I don’t care. They assume that I am waiting on the world – waiting for it to give me something. I’m not, though.

They keep on telling me that I have great potential. I could succeed… if I only wanted to. That’s just it though, I do. I want to succeed. I want to “have it all.” I mean, who doesn’t, right?

I have asked myself hundreds of time as to where I would be after I finish my studies. And it terrifies me. Why? Because, I honestly don’t know where I’d be. I don’t have a concrete plan. I don’t know what kind of job I’d want or see myself in. I don’t know what it will be like and it’s scary not knowing. The future is scary.

But I do want to know. I want to know where I want to be. I want to know who I’m going to be. And putting pressure on me won’t help me see and decide.

I might not be as independent as expected but I would like to be. I want to someday soon be able to fend for myself. Stand on my own feet. That counts for something, doesn’t it?

I am graduating next semester. See there? I AM. I am sure of this. I don’t care if I jinx it or whatever. I will do this. I might not know where I’ll be but I know I’ll get there.

*Hey reader, if in any way you can relate to this post, I hope you will realize something that I have… The world does not owe me anything. The world has given me many things. I guess, it is up to me to use what its offered make something worthwhile.

“Most successful men have not achieved their distinction by having some new talent or opportunity presented to them. They have developed the opportunity that was at hand.”
Bruce Barton

Memory

image from Tumblr.

Everyone has regrets. Everyone has made mistakes. I think there is no one on earth without one. There are things that you’ve done you’d rather you didn’t. Sad as that may be, that’s just how life goes, i guess.

There are those memories that would be best forgotten, you know? There are experiences that you just wish were just dreams – figments of your imagination; that you wish you could travel back in time and stop from happening. And when you look back, you ask yourself, “what were you thinking? were you even thinking?” I have a handful of them and i still berate myself whenever i get reminded of my regrets.

I think it’s natural to make mistakes and to regret them… but it would make everything, at least, slightly better if we learn from them. It would be worse if we committed mistakes then, in the future, commit the same ones again. That’s just plain stupid.

I’ve come to realize that yes, it would feel better if these bad memories are washed away from your head; that they would be erased forever and never to be known again but it would be best, I think, that these things be kept with you as you walk through life. For me, it’s a good thing to have reminders of your mistakes. These regrets, these mistakes, they keep us in check. They remind us of what we’ve done and they are examples of things to not do… again. Ever.

Yes, we make mistakes. Yes, we regret them. Yes, we’d rather we forget about them… but in reality, there’s very little chance we forget about them, so, just make good out of something perceived as bad and learn from them.

Don’t kill that memory. Keep it  and learn from it. I know I will.

Mistakes are sometimes the best memories.

It’s All in the Mind

Some photos I took when went out by myself late July… and yes, i had a mini food trip all by myself LOL

my name spelled right by the Starbucks barista. it makes me smile whenever that happens. weird, i know.
IT park 🙂
a lil birdie spying at the left overs at McDonald’s 🙂
french fries! nomnomnom 😀
the lights at YoGo Boy 🙂

I am an amateur. I know that. But it never hurts to practice and improve my skills.

It sucks that I always say this. I always tell myself that I have to practice to improve yet I cannot push myself to simply just do so. I may be too lazy or too tired or whatever. That shouldn’t be, now should it? If you want something, pursue it. When you pursue it, with all that you’ve got. If you want to achieve something, strive for it. Strive for it with all your might.

These thoughts are always in my head. I keep telling myself to just DO it. DO IT! But I don’t. Hopefully, this time around, I WILL.

Start out simply. I think.

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. – Confucius 🙂

Building Bridges

On August 5, 2012, the first ever Acquaintance Party by the new student organization under the Computer Science Department, the Dynamic Communication Society, was held. Coincidentally, it was the first party at the beach – Maribago Bluewater Resort.

surf board decor. appropriate for the beach, eh?
Photowall with the party’s theme…

The theme was Bridging the Gap under the Sun, hence, the title of this post. 🙂

as the festivities were held on a Sunday, a mass was held for everyone who attended 🙂
During the tug of war game… 

the sandcastle making contest. the HIMYM song by Robin Sparkles comes to mind. LOL
some of the members of the blue team who participated in the games 🙂
student bands were featured too 🙂
oodles of prizes were given. mr & miss “head turner” were chosen. 🙂

The party-goers had a great time, right? Looked like they had fun.

Anyhoo, i was part of the team that organized the whole shindig. 🙂

the council with smiles on their faces preparing for a long night of prepping ahead. 🙂

The whole Dynacom Council planned the event and made it all possible. Approaching lots of possible sponsors, getting rejected by some, many council meetings (most of which I couldn’t attend teehee), all the worries (of the weather! of traffic! OF MONEY!), one sleepless night and a day of manual labor – it all came to fruition. (As wrote the previous sentence, I thought “hmm. It became a  yummy fruit salad.” corny, much?)

some of the officers, including myself, joining in on the fun 🙂 notice the matching shirts.
it’s not obvious that we only had a little amount of sleep the night prior, right?

Many things did not go as planned, the specifics of the venue, the flow of the program, the late arrivals… I will not share much of it because i think they weren’t glaringly obvious to the people who attended.

the only solo picture of me from the party. 😦 oh, well.

By the end of the day, I just couldn’t take it anymore. With no sleep at all from the night before, I was finding it hard to walk around near the end. 😦 So, I got on the bus & went home earlier than the other officers… only to go to Handuraw and have an “after party” with some friends. I could never refuse free pizza!

Handuraw Special 🙂
after party 🙂 don’t i look sleepy?

Despite the stress, it was all worth it. When I read all the feedback from the students part of the organization, I was overwhelmed. They had fun. They had a wonderful time. The day was a success! Hopefully, the rest of the events in store for the organization will receive the same reaction, too. *crosses fingers*

*aside from mine, the photos are grabbed from the cameras of Kevin Abad, Cherry Paca, Cyra Gadrinab and Micah Borromeo.

The Starting Line

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very familiar graphic of a starting line

This would be my 3rd blogging account. Funny, right? I’ve always wanted to blog. So, I start one up yet as days pass, I just couldn’t find the time to post anything. Partly, maybe I just don’t have much to say.

My life tends to get rather dull. But I’ve realized that dull it may be, I should still write about it. That way, it wouldn’t be so boring. It can push me to not have a dull everyday life. It can push me to be adventurous and spontaneous. It can also help improve my photography skills or lack thereof.

Therefore, I declare that this be my personal blog wherein I can share my thoughts, rant on things, post my photography attempts and my adventures. (Hopefully, they aren’t that dull.)